THE PHOENIX RISING

Without love there is no faith. Your life will feel lost and misplaced. Without faith there is no hope. Your life will continue down a slippery slope. Without hope there is no desire. Your life will become pointless and dyer. Without desire there is no life. Your life will be in peril and plight. Without life there is no breathing. Your life would be gone as you end being. Without being you miss seeing that love, faith, hope and desire makes the Phoenix rise after the fire. (11/2009)

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

I try very hard to live by this - I try!!

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The Phoenix Rising: United States; I’m not a shy or weird. I’m quiet & reserved. I have my moments. I’m a goofball with a serious side. No one will ever say I'm charming. I’m told I’m funny. I’ll never be considered romantic. I’ve been told I’m sweet. I’ll be the last guy thought of but the first when you need to think. I’m a danger to be with but you’ll always be safe when I’m around. I will always fight the stigma of being seen for what I am instead of who I am. I'll never be able to change that. It is what it is. Sometimes it takes darkness to see the light. With age comes wisdom. With wisdom comes knowlege. With knowledge comes light. With light the darkness can't shine. I’m going to show you who I am. Just take my hand. We’re going deep to the space between spaces where the light doesn’t shine. Into the crack where one part resides. Hold on tightly. I’m letting you into the corners of my mind. Close your eyes and you’ll see. I’m darker than the light. Brighter than the night. I elude your dreams. Absent in your thoughts. Present in the time. Lost in the scene. But there’s more to me. (11/9)

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You can go two ways with adversity. Embrace the darkness that shrouds you or seek out the light that will define you. To see the light you have to understand the darkness. 12/11

MY BLATHERINGS

About me (22)
Deep thoughts (13)
Funny pictures/other stuff (28)
Goofball with serious side (21)
I'm a sap (4)
In their words (7)
Interesting to me (2)
It is what it is (14)
Just Jared (16)
Lyrical blathering (6)
Photos to ponder (33)
Poetry dark (28)
Poetry Novice (14)
Poetry sappy (13)
Politics (7)
Random Thought (19)
Rant of the day (13)
Religion (7)
The darker side of me (19)

This is a place where I can express my thoughts and opinions, vent my frustrations and talk about my struggles and demons. I live, experience, feel, think and then type. It’s a form of therapy for me. I don't like drama. I don't like being the center of attention. I'm a sufferer in silence type. I bit my tongue a lot. I like to stay off the radar. Someone has it worse. I understand that. It could always be worse. I'm trying to deal as best as I can on this third rock from the sun.

Never mistake someone’s kindness for weakness but never be weak not to act kind. Kindness never hurt anyone. The failure not too has.

Sagittarius-The Archer

"People need dramatic examples to shake them out of apathy. As a man I'm flesh and blood. I can be ignored. I can be destroyed but as a symbol I can be incorruptible. I can be everlasting. Deep down I may still be that great kid I used to be. It's not who I am underneath. It's what I do that defines me. Nobility is not a birthright. It's born through ones actions." ~ mix of Bruce Wayne (Batman Begins) and Robin Hood of Locksley (Prince of Thieves)

Land of the free

"America will never be destroyed from the outside. If we falter and lose our freedoms, it will be because we destroyed ourselves." ~ Abraham Lincoln

American of Italian descent

"La calma è la virtù dei forti" meaning.", "The calm is the virtue of the strong." ~ old Italian proverb

"If you're an underdog, mentally disabled, physically disabled, if you don't fit in, if you're not as pretty as the others, you can still be a hero." ~ Steve Guttenberg (OMG I'm quoting Mahoney, lol)

I'm old fashioned. A hand shake amongst two men shoud still mean something but I don't think a woman belongs in the kitchen. There use to be line people didn't cross with one another or in society. We need to get back to that.

I’m a sappy hopeless romantic but I’m also a realist. True love and being loved for me is not going to be in the cards. I don’t believe in fairy tales of any kind. I’m just a see the writing on the wall type of guy.

Love me or hate me I don’t care. I have beliefs and opinions that form my convictions that manifested through my own trials and errors in my life. I am willing to be open minded to change or tweak them with those that are sincere and honest with there’s but you won’t get anywhere with me by being ignorant.

I hold a lot back. I do bite my tongue. Sometimes I just want to go off in my own humorous but thought provoking truth telling mode. Certain people’s drama or ignorance makes me want to actually say, “Dumbass” and add to that.

“My own experience and development deepen everyday my conviction that our moral progress may be measured by the degree in which we sympathize with individual suffering and individual joy.” ~ T.S. Eliot (Editor, playwright, poet & critic)

Captain Jack Sparrow: If I could be any movie character it would be him. I love Depp's portrayal which is hilariously endearing but I grasp the battle within Sparrow of right versus wrong but still get what you want. I can relate to that. In a way we’re all Pirates.

Above caption reads, “The universe: 10,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 but oh yeah, we’re the only intelligent life” “We are just an advanced breed of monkeys on a minor planet of a very average star. But we can understand the Universe. That makes us something very special.” ~ Stephen Hawking

R.I.P George Carlin

“I'm completely in favor of the separation of Church and State. My idea is that these two institutions screw us up enough on their own, so both of them together are certain death.” ~ George Carlin

“Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds. The mediocre mind is incapable of understanding the man who refuses to bow blindly to conventional prejudices and chooses instead to express his opinions courageously and honestly.” ~ Albert Einstein

I can't stand %99.9 of politicians in Washington D.C. The ones that make law and run the whole show. They're all high class and white collar privledged aristocrats that know nothing about blue collar people and their struggles.

"When one person suffers from a delusion, it is called insanity. When many people suffer from a delusion it is called a Religion." ~ Robert M. Pirsig

It's simple. Use fear to control and in turn you profit. You need no proof. Just add an outline in text form and preach it from a pulpit with self-professed holy men or experts and add atmospheres that attract an easily manipulated audience.

According to religious people, I'm the enemy, 'cause I like to think, I like to read. I'm into freedom of speech, and freedom of choice. I'm the kinda guy that likes to sit in a greasy spoon and wonder, "Gee, should I have the T-bone steak or the jumbo rack of barbecue ribs with the side-order of gravy fries?" I want high cholesterol! I wanna eat bacon, and butter, and buckets of cheese, okay?! I wanna smoke a Cuban cigar the size of Cincinnati in the non-smoking section! I wanna run naked through the street, with green Jell-O all over my body, reading Playboy magazine. Why? Because I suddenly may feel the need to, okay, pal?

“We must question the story logic of having an all-knowing all-powerful God, who creates faulty Humans, and then blames them for his own mistakes.” ~ Gene Roddenberry

"The God of the Old Testament is arguably the most unplesant character in all fiction: jealous and proud of it; a petty, unjust, unforgiving control-freak; a vindictive, bloodthirsty ethnic cleanser, a misogynistic, homophobic, racist, infanticidal, genocidal, filicidal, pestilential, megalomaniacal, sadomasochistic, capriciously malevolent bully." ~ Richard Dawkins

Karma is a lie just like Chunk's in the movie “The Goonies” where he said Michal Jackson came to his house to use the bathroom. This ideology annoys me more than a 100 Lucille Ball impersonators saying all at once, “But Ricky!”

“If each man or woman could understand that every other human life is as full of sorrows, or joys, or base temptations, of heartaches and of remorse as his own . . . how much kinder, how much gentler the world would be.” ~ William Allen White (American Journalist 1868-1944)

I've let the wrong sort of people in my life. The kind that are nice to you when it's convenient for them but turn their back on you when the crowd or the odds are against you to save face. Gradually through the years I've separated myself from them and the scene.

I’ve never had “real” friends. More like acquaintances through sports and school. They ran me down. I never picked on, picked a fight or held grudges with anyone but somehow I’ve lived my entire life on the outside looking in. I don't get close to people because of this.

“There comes a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything, but it's not giving up. It's realizing you don't need certain people and the drama they bring.” ~ Adam Lindsay Gordon (Poet)

I’m one person that does not need alcohol to have a good time. I’m naturally obnoxious, sarcastic and witty. Banter should be my middle name. I’m a goofball with a serious side. Life is too short and hard not to laugh after you cry.

Accompanied with some wit, done right it can be fun for all but done wrong and you’re hoping the tooth fairy still pays for adult teeth that were knocked out.

I'm like the smartest dumb guy or the dumbest smart guy you'll ever know. Either way is giving a gun to an intelligent monkey a real wise thing to do? I tune things out good and sometimes it's a bad thing.

You can't beat Martin & Lewis, Don Rickles, Abbot and Costello and the Three Stooges. I love current comedians like Adam Sandler and Jerry Seinfeld but you can’t go wrong with the classics.

When I'm old I can only hope to mirror Waldorf and Statler in my every day life. It's pretty sad that a grown man can watch these two and laugh his ass off everytime.

Best show ever!

"Jerry: Is that your "chicken" making all that noise? Kramer: Oh, Little Jerry loves the morning. Jerry: Who?Kramer: Little Jerry Seinfeld. Yeah I named my chicken after you. " ~ Seinfeld episode

To know your future you must know the past. Right there is a guide of what to do, how to do it and what happened when they did it. You can learn from histories triumphs and mistakes. Just think of it as instructions without the asinine terminology or foreign language on the reverse side.

“Knowing is not enough we must apply. Willing is not enough we must do” ~ Bruce Lee

ESPN’s Sportscenter, what else does a man need other than that? Oh wait a beer and his lady sitting beside him watching it with enthusiasm. That would be like heaven. “Da-na-na-na Da-na-na-na! =)

I'm not much of a drinker but when I do its "Miller time." Miller lite man law! Google that. Enough said.

I think. I think a lot. I don't think thinking ever hurt anyone. However I over analyze everything including what I do and I can be hard on myself. I just think. In fact I am thinking right now.

I like art. Though I am not an scholar. I prefer surreal art that makes me think or open my eyes. It could be a painting or photography. To me certain surreal art could mean anything to the person looking at it.

I'm a star gazer. It doesn't matter if it’s 80 degrees or 20 degrees outside. If it’s a clear night you'll spot me having a nice quiet moment looking up. It’s an ocean up there of endless possibilities and illuminating enlightenment. Your welcome to join.

I'm a sap

For the ladies =)

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.” ~ Author Unknown

Sonnet 18

I’m not a pervert but I do notice the girl in the bikini like the next guy. I just happen to believe a well-dressed lady is far more appealing than a least dressed one. There is a difference between an attention whore and having class. I know it when I see it.

Sonnet 57

I think at some point all men once their brain fully develops around age thirty must realize the beauty inside a woman is far more important and just as or greater of an catalyst to soothe their desires, needs and loins with what they see on the outside.

Frank Sinatra is a mood setter. "Fly me to the moon", "Summer wind" and "The way you look tonight" are my favorites but his greatest hit CD it's hard to pick just one. Linkin Park is my favorite band but how can you not like Sinatra?

Sonnet 29

I don’t know if I’ll ever become the man I want to be. Be seen as the man I want to be. I don’t know if I’ll ever have what I want to have. I don’t know if what I have will make me that man I want to be. All I know is, I have regrets I wish I could do over but I know without those regrets I would have not learned anything.

"To be, or not to be, that is the question: Whether 'tis Nobler in the mind to suffer. The Slings and Arrows of outrageous Fortune, Or to take Arms against a Sea of troubles, And by opposing end them: to die, to sleep. No more; and by a sleep, to say we end." ~ soliloquy in William Shakespeare's play Hamlet.

“I stand amid the roar of a surf-tormented shore, And I hold within my hand grains of the golden sand. How few! Yet how they creep through my fingers to the deep while I weep- while I weep! O God! can I not grasp them with a tighter clasp? O God! Can I not save one from the pitiless wave? Is all that we see or seem but a dream within a dream?” ~ Edgar Allan Poe (A dream within a dream)

To me life is an always learning process. No one ever gets it or knows it all. Some just become better at living than others. The difference between a flawed person and sociopath is a moral conscious. It’s the ability to admit when you’re wrong and stay humbled when you’re right.

"Illusions commend themselves to us because they save us pain and allow us to enjoy pleasure instead. We must therefore accept it without complaint when they sometimes collide with a bit of reality against which they are dashed to pieces." ~ Sigmund Freud.

I walk alone

I've always walked to the beat of my own drum. I don't care for fads and materialistic things are nice but not the be all end all with me. I'm set in my ways. I can be a bit of a loner but not always by choice.

My achillies heel

Your face is like your word. If it is not good, no one wants anything to do with it. The first rule to a successful dating relationship is attraction. Next is personality and then common interests. Without success in the first rule the other two will not matter. "A clever, ugly man every now and then is successful with the ladies, but a handsome fool is irresistible." ~ William Makepeace Thackeray

It is my burden I must live with. I did not ask for this but in my life I've been judged over it. To live like this is like living with that awful feeling right before you're about to cry every day of your life. You just have to deal with it. There is no easy way.

We live in a shallow and superficial world filled with materialistic desires like trophy wives, pin-ups, pool boys and rock stars. Then there are the rest of us that just want true love but don't fit the part. I'm forced to live in my own dark castle.

I fight my demons every day. It's every negative, ignorant and boorish thing certain people have said to me over my entire life. It's also what I see in the mirror when I shave. I've been judged, stereotyped and overlooked because of this curse of which is a burden. It's made me a functioning depressive.

All I can be is me. I'm not changing for anyone. I'll change for me. Evolution make spir that a bit as I continue to live my life. In my life I've got the message that I'm not good enough. Be it people, dating, sports or other. I walk this world understanding somewhere someone has it worse but that doesn't mean what I have gone through and continue to deal with doesn't hurt. I try to keep moving forward.

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